Sleep, where are you?

This whole insomnia thing is really affecting my life. I screwed up big today! Ronny went to work early, so it was my responsibility to get the kids up, ready for school, and dropped off.

I woke up at 11:00 a.m. All 3 kids were sitting on the couch watching TV. I asked them why they didn’t wake me up, and all 3 said, “Because you were asleep.” Come to find out they had only been awake since 10:30 a.m.

I didn’t take the kids to school today. They would’ve had to get ready, and I would’ve had to feed them lunch because it was that time of the day for them. It would’ve been like noon by the time I got them there; that only leaves 3 hours left in the school day.

I had to make the dreaded text message to Ronny. “I’m so so sorry! I totally screwed up this morning. I turned my alarm off and didn’t wake up until 11.”

No response! He still hasn’t said anything to me about it. I don’t know if that’s a good thing or a bad thing.

The problem I’m having is I sleep so much better in the daylight hours. If I’m able to sleep from 8 a.m. to 4 p.m., I feel good. I function so much better at night. I am actually awake at 6:30 in the morning when I have to get the kids up, ready for school, and dropped off.  The issue I have with this schedule is it’s not conducive on the weekends or anytime the kids are home.

I do not do good having to transition from night schedule to day schedule, which I have to for my family.

I wish everyone functioned on a night schedule. It’d make my life easier! 🙂



One thought on “Sleep, where are you?

  1. You know, there’s a reason that sleep deprivation is a form of torture. Reteaching your body to sleep is a difficult thing. Anxiety and intrusive thoughts were the reasons for my insomnia in the early onset of PPD/PPA for me. I had to get to the root of the issues and really try to clear my mind. It wasn’t easy, but now, I get maybe 4 – 5 hours of sleep at night. I definitely have to nap on the weekends, but it means that I am move involved with my family during the daytime / weekdays. Good luck to you, and hopefully you’ll be sleeping well soon!

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